Kusanagi Izumo (
toremainbehind) wrote2015-10-18 07:33 pm
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[How many times can we fall?]
[It's been a week since they've managed to escape.
Neither of them knew who tipped someone off about their location, who helped them escape while everything became hacked and otherwise useless in keeping them contained. It had been their downfall to let Izumo stay in the frontline, his skills almost legendary now with how effective of an assassin he has become over time. Their downfall led to their deaths, and Izumo has ran away with Eric while the remnants of that group tried to go after them.
They didn't know where to go - who to turn to.
For them, this open world was a mystery, even if Izumo has more experience than Eric when it came to the outside world. There's no one they could trust, and little to no money to their name since their captors often took the money Izumo's earned for his kills. But Izumo is adaptable, taking odd jobs here and there in order to earn enough money to save up and find a place to stay.
It's only been a couple of days ago when Izumo first ran into the leader of HOMRA, the Red King and him having traded blows before it came to a tie. They went their separate ways shortly after when an informant came running towards them, Izumo having escaped before he could be questioned.
Now, he had taken Eric to a refuge in a motel. It's small and not one of the best, but it's the best Izumo could afford on such short notice when it became obvious to him when Eric has to rest again.
His right shoulder blade itched from the burns he received from Mikoto, but he ignores it in favor of in-between watching Eric sleep and looking out the window from his perch on the windowsill.]
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But that sentence made a question that he never yet always wanted to ask. He looked up at his brother. ]
Izumo?
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He looks over.] Hm?
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[ That thought plagued bim for years as soon as he had first heard what Izumo was being forced to do. Not that he was one to talk as he had done the same thing a few times. But he had always made sure to protect him like an older brother does but was his life worth all of those people? What price was equal to bis life. If it weren't for him...maybe Izumo would have run, hide, not been a killer and it made him feel guilty. Incredibly guilty knowing his brother willingly murdered people so be could live for a few more weeks. ]
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He lights his cigarette and takes a drag as he looks away from his brother in order to stare at the wall as he thought about the question.
Was it worth killing just so that Eric could live?
The answer was simple, but at the same time, it wasn't. Killing all of those people haunted him, their blood forever staining his hands in a way that in the dead of night when he was alone, he could still feel it on him. There was nothing that could ever replace the feeling of killing, hearing the screams and pleads as he ended their lives. They were all victims as well, but Izumo could never think of them that way.
He eventually came to view them as his insurance in keeping his brother alive.
After a long silence, he looks back at Eric, his expression carefully blank.]
Was it worth it? No. But none of their lives matters to me as much as yours do. As long as I keep you alive, then that's the only thing that matters to me.
[He's already lost part of his morality, part of the only thing that can keep him human.]
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He flinched a bit when he heard that no. The guilt coming up hard and fast on him. He wished that Izuni didn't have to suffer like that for him. ]
...I'm not going to die anytime soon...
[ Would his answer have been any different? Had it been worth killing those people so Izumo didn't have to suffer like he had? So he could see his brother a fay or two early? His gut wrenched a bit when he came up with a yes.
He would protect his brother in his own way. He already had at times but here it was different. Here just make Izumi smile, to forget those times that had crushed them both. ]
As long as you do the same.
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A hint of a smile flickers on his face.] Of course.
What made you decide to ask, though?
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Can't ask questions anymore without you wondering why?
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[He sees Eric fidgeting, and it makes Izumo frown.]
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[ He fidgeted with his sleeves, looking everywhere but Izumo. ]
...They said...if I told you...that you would hate me.
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[But his frown deepens.]
Told me what?
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Those times...do you remember...when it was a long time before we could see each other. And...then suddenly you could see me in shorter amount of time?
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I do.
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[ His shaking grew a bit. His tugging on his hair a bit more. He had to do this. ]
Then one time, it started. They opened the door, smiling...and said I could see you. But at a price.
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No. Not his brother.
It can't be—]
Eric...did they make you kill?
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I just wanted to see you...even a day earlier I just...couldn't...be alone anymore.
[ He curls up trembling. He had only been 13 he didn't know what else to do.]
Please...don't hate me they said you would leave and hate me...you didn't want a murderer for a brother.
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But then he sees Eric curling up and he walks over to place his hands on his shoulders.]
Well, do you hate me? [He smiles.] I'm a murderer, Eric. I've killed people, too, but do you hate me for that?
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I know...I know...but they said...they said you would and I...they kept laughing. I got so scared...so scared. And so many people there so many...
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[He tugs Eric close, hugging him.]
They're all liars. I would never hate you for doing that.
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He started to cry. He had held it for years and those words broke the dam he didn't even know he was building]
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Seeing the effect of what they told his brother, it made him wish he had killed them sooner. He ignores how wet his shirt is getting, merely holding him closer.]
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His mind will still tell him this
Still say that his brother will hate them for killing people. But hearing that from his brother himself...it will fade. ]
I'm such an idiot...
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[He presses his forehead against Eric's.]
I will always love you, Eric. Never will come a day where I'll hate you. Remember that.
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Thank you. I love you too
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I. I am so sorry for this.
Omg don't be at all
ha...It just had to come out somehow 8D;
Sooner the better XD
True enough! At least they'll get fluff afterwards
alll the fluff
\o/
/o/
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